Can you see it in my eyes???

How someone behaves when they’re in love, varies from person to person. Every person has their own way of showing that they care about you. But I don’t feel like doing stuff for someone anymore, I have become very numb and shallow when it comes to showing love. Whatever I invested in my last relationship, I am not even able to invest that much in my current relationship. By saying this, I don’t mean that I do not love my partner, it just means that I am so done with doing things that I used to, because those things were ineffective.
I have so much of love inside me and I do not know any way to express that she’d like. I have never made a card for someone, making a card is not me. I have never written a letter to someone until I was heart-broken, I have not written anything lately. Because I started to feel that these words doesn’t matter to people anymore. But I would do all this if my partner wants me to, because I do love her, a lot.
The thing with me and expressing love is that I expect people to see the love in my eyes, when I look at them with all my heart. I expect them to feel the love when I hug them like I never want to let them go. I expect people to feel the love when I ask if they’re having their meals on time. I do not ever want to treat people like shit, it is not in me to mistreat someone. And it is pretty much obvious that most of the times, how we behave, doesn’t match the expectations of our partner. So what do we do now? Change?
I fear that trying to change myself would make things work if I fail. What if the person doesn’t love the evolved version of myself? Trying to change would be a very risky thing to do. I don’t want to lose the love I have, the ONLY love I have.
I am going to try and do things that would help me showing my love but it is on the other person to be able to see it through else I would have to push myself really hard in this, ha-ha.
Piece of advice – try to see the love in people, in what they do, what they say to you. The little things are what hold the truth about how someone feels about you. Keep loving ❤

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