Can you see it in my eyes???

How someone behaves when they’re in love, varies from person to person. Every person has their own way of showing that they care about you. But I don’t feel like doing stuff for someone anymore, I have become very numb and shallow when it comes to showing love. Whatever I invested in my last relationship, I am not even able to invest that much in my current relationship. By saying this, I don’t mean that I do not love my partner, it just means that I am so done with doing things that I used to, because those things were ineffective.
I have so much of love inside me and I do not know any way to express that she’d like. I have never made a card for someone, making a card is not me. I have never written a letter to someone until I was heart-broken, I have not written anything lately. Because I started to feel that these words doesn’t matter to people anymore. But I would do all this if my partner wants me to, because I do love her, a lot.
The thing with me and expressing love is that I expect people to see the love in my eyes, when I look at them with all my heart. I expect them to feel the love when I hug them like I never want to let them go. I expect people to feel the love when I ask if they’re having their meals on time. I do not ever want to treat people like shit, it is not in me to mistreat someone. And it is pretty much obvious that most of the times, how we behave, doesn’t match the expectations of our partner. So what do we do now? Change?
I fear that trying to change myself would make things work if I fail. What if the person doesn’t love the evolved version of myself? Trying to change would be a very risky thing to do. I don’t want to lose the love I have, the ONLY love I have.
I am going to try and do things that would help me showing my love but it is on the other person to be able to see it through else I would have to push myself really hard in this, ha-ha.
Piece of advice – try to see the love in people, in what they do, what they say to you. The little things are what hold the truth about how someone feels about you. Keep loving ❤

The House on Fire 🔥

(penned by Anchal)

Everything seemed pretty normal 
From the outside;
But I could see that
The house was on fire
Flames of it rising to the top
Turning the love and hope
Into the ashes off hatred
The house was on fire

Nobody came out of the burning house
Thought it was empty
But all of 'em chose to be inside
And adore their home for as much time as they could

But I could see a light
Different from the fire flames
A white unicorn
Struggling at the window pane
To get out of that burning house
But he couldn't flap his wings Since they were damaged
From protecting the others in the house
Who didn’t want to live anymore
But the unicorn did;
He wanted life for him and for others too!

But the unicorn dies
With the others in that burning house
And the house is now ashes
Waiting for the wind to carry it along.


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